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That distance away

2010-10-05T23:23:00.000-07:00

I miss cookie boy so much, i wanna skype with him everyday!

Koala land!

2010-09-27T21:35:00.000-07:00

Perth is perfect!
Joondalup city is abit too quiet though, very far fetched compared to singapore.

The weather is *woot* shiok! but it can get really cold at night.
I was at perth royal show without a jacket due to some reason, i badly needed the heat with the cold air slapping me in the face when night falls.
Speaking of the royal show, it was awesome! If only singapore could have such carnival. The best part was the fireworks! Watching that, i concluded that NDP's fireworks is crap. hahah.

School has started today, gonna get busy from tonight onwards.
Sch ended at 5pm, and decided to go for a run towards the beach aft that.
IT WAS FREAKING COLD! but it was a good experience, i've nv tried running in such a weather.

I think once i've adapted to perth weather, i'll die of heat when im back in singapore.

Flying on a jet plane

2010-09-25T00:08:00.000-07:00

Hip Hip Hooray! My auntie got discharged from the hospital today!

Thats good news to kickstart of the day before i go to Perth.
Yes im leaving on a jetplane tmr, for 18days to be exact.
I hope that besides the hectic school timetable, i'll have a good time there.
And may assignments be smooth sailing... (Already facing problem with a module even before im there..) Sigh..

Meanwhile, im so excited because i've gotten the tix for the Perth Royal Carnival! Im going to the carnival on sunday, im sure it'll be awesome.

Since i'll be gone for more than 2 weeks, i've ~~officially left~~ taken leave frm work at APSN.
Its only at the last day of work did i realize that i actually felt something for the students. There was this little sour feeling in me when i drove out of the sch compound.

And it was on days like teacher's day did i know that i meant something in a couple of student. Watching the student cry on the last day actually warms my heart abit. Not like i enjoy watching people cry, but just that i know i've made an impact in her life..

Lugguage: packed!
Passport: checked!
Hey Perth! Here i come!! :D

Stress-A-Full

2010-09-16T13:15:00.000-07:00

Im mentally fatigue in recent weeks.. I've been overstressing myself and thinking too much recently.

There's so much worrying to do,that i think i should let go.

Im currently worrying about assignments to be completed by this week before i leave for Perth. Everytime i open up my computer to start on it, i end up getting too anxious and i always don do a good job. Looking at my team members being more efficient than me worries me even more.

And there's the motor control exam. I have yet to start studying for it when i've less than a week to do so.

Time is so litle, i've not enough time to complete task at hand. Besides studies, i've been wrecking my brain to plan something for the boyfriend's birthday since we are both leaving for aust during his bdae week. Plans would be carried out this weekend, yet im also worrying if i've the time to complete my sch work by this weekend. Argh.
Travelling to ttsh to visit my auntie has actually taken up more time than expected....

I've been thinking about my career route after graduation too. Backside itchy, started stressing myself over such issue even before i stress finish about my assignments and exams. But im left with less than 2 mths to graduation.. Whats up for me aft that?

Whats the stress you asked me? Im afraid of making decisions that i would regret in future. I seem to have the tendancy to do that all the time. Damn it.

I cant seem to concentrate well in these weeks, my skin complexion became real bad. Anyone who have seen me recently can be witness to that.

See la Eunice, backside itchy think so much for what?

All because of you

2010-09-09T01:41:00.000-07:00

有些事情我也说不明白
想和你在一起
为什么舍不得分开
或许我软弱也害怕失败
但有你的笑容
就能让我再站起来
你曾问我是什么令我
对你难以忘怀
我也曾经想过
这种感觉说不出来
我现在才明白

因为爱所以爱
珍惜在一起的愉快
一分开你不在
怀念空气里的对白

因为爱所以爱
让我付出我的关怀
不管风吹或日晒
我才明白
一切都是因为爱

Its been long..

2010-09-08T15:30:00.000-07:00

Phew! I had the 'best weeks' of my life since my last update.
They had my head spinning in circles.

My laptop crash, Toshiba sux.
My BB and itouch screwed up just when i needed to surf the net for my assignments, technologies hate me.
It was at the most crucial time when my assignment was due. Eventually, the other 2 lovelies did all the work, i end up making it in time to finish up ONE paragraph. *Guilty*

Couple of weeks ago, my yiyi got admitted into the hospital. She had lungs infection before and apparently it got worse. To the extent that walking for a distance of just 1 bus stop away and you would see her frantically catching her breath. There were times i fear she would just collapse due to that.
Frens ard me knows how close i am to her. She's the one who babysit me ever since i was a mth old, she's the one i stayed with when my primary sch was at river valley while my parents live in Yishun. She's the one who i talk too without holding back much cos we treat each other more like friends instead of an aunt/niece relationship.

God knows how frantic i was when i learn that she has to undergo surgery, and the high risk it involves for her condition was weak and she aint that young to start with. I prayed hoping that she'll be given another chance to get over this major surgery. I went to the temple where grandma's urn was to actually asked for her blessing. It may sound silly, but i felt much comfort just by looking at her urn. I miss my ah ma alot too... :(

Thank god my prayers were answered! Although ahyi's lungs condition still aint that good, she got through the surgery. And i thank all those who asked about her!

Ohhh cookie boy is so cute!

Last few weeks, boyfriend and i had unpleasant times too. How i hate arguments!
Its time i change, its time i do something about myself. I hold back way too much, its unfair to my boy.
'Love as though you've never been hurt before'
I shall heed to that. I shall try, i will try.

Im quite an independent person in times of being alone, i feel.
I mean like i enjoy times of being alone, it gives me much 'pondering space'
Even when boyfriend enters the army, all we had were weekends.
When the boyfriend had field camps, when he went overseas, I brave through all and told myself to hold on, for it would all be over when he commissioned.
I was wrong, boyfriend workload increases when he became an officer. My time spent is lesser than when he was in OCS. By time spent, i even meant communication time over the phone.
Arguments started when i end up not being able to tolerate that distance, It was torturous at some time. Those were the times when eunice was a weakling.

But arguments are over, good times will come!

Wow, what a long and boring post.. Thanks for viewing my ranting page. :)))

Just gonna stand there and watch me burn

2010-08-18T22:26:00.000-07:00

Last entry, dated 28th July.

hahaha, aint that bad right, last blog entry was less than a mth. my blog haven really rot that badly.

Aww come on, everytime i am sitting infront of my laptop, it would be in the process of journal searching for assignments (assignments a plenty this sem).
By the time i finish my work (including fb-ing/ blogshop-ing :S), it would be my sleeping time.

Bahhhh tired lah!

Im currently anxiously waiting for my trip to Perth.
Cant wait to attend lessons and check out the whole sch.
Cant wait to hang out with my grp members and wreck havoc in Joondalup
Cant wait to explore Perth and gear up for some adventure.
Cant wait to try yummy-licious seafood at Frementle.
Cant wait to go sandboarding!!
Cant wait to swim in the sea where sharks exist.
Cant wait to share the same room as the girls. *snicker*
Cant wait to stress over the due dates of assignments.

Cant wait cant wait cant wait.
Best of all, i cant wait to travel!!!!

There are many beautiful countries outside singapore.
I must set a target, focus on a country that i wanna visit and work my ass off to fulfil that promise.
Nepal!! You'll be my target, i'll visit you one day, i promise!

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that's alright because i like the way it hurts

Happiness, the thin line in between

2010-07-28T00:54:00.000-07:00

Dear lord,
Pls bring smiles and kidnap the frowns away from everyone around me.
And include me

Hectic schedule.. My life has change quite abit.
As days and years drift by, life becomes so different. Aint as carefree as it used to be..
I think, its the point of morphing into adulthood.

I welcome STRESS with open arms! Bluff who.. -_-

Let me fly away

2010-06-09T23:04:00.000-07:00

Thank goodness, exams over for this sem. I hope i pass, it was a tough nut.

'Can we pretend that airplanes in the night sky are like shooting stars.'

Next, gonna leave on the make believe 'shooting star'. Its a morning flight though.. I cant wait!
Its good to leave, even for awhile. It would be a breather for me, a breather for others too.
Its a good time to relax, and just let go of any knots in my heart. And when i'm back, hopefully problems free.
This trip comes right on time. I need to get away.......

Dear cookie boy. be a good boy while im gone and try not to destroy stuff at home!

I wish things would be as simple as me and you.

May good times last

2010-06-01T11:23:00.000-07:00

JUNE HAS ARRIVED!!
Exams come first, which also meant that I'm only 1 sem left to graduation. :)
Aft exams I'll be leaving for Taiwan, woohoo.. Shop and eat, shop and eat..
Just days aft touch down back from holiday, it will be the boyfriend's commission parade.. ♥♥
*proud* I'll ~~try to~~ keep my fetish for officers in uniform to just my boy, you're the best la baby.. Haha! (but come on man, anyone be it guys or girls in uniform is way cool)
Following day, dress up pretty and walk hand in hand to attend the armour's commission ball. Yeahhhh. ♥♥
And June is the month of sch holiday, which means I need not wake up early for work for a whole month, shiok shiok shiok.

This has to be a good month.
I shall be free from emo-ness for the month of June
I shall be less sensitive with things. I must be more trustful with people ard me.

And i hope these good times last...

Hold those tears

2010-05-29T17:25:00.000-07:00

Life's been a bitch recently.
And im losing control of it.
And this sux.
Bye

Carribean Blue

2010-05-26T00:20:00.000-07:00

So the world goes round and round with all you ever knew
They say the sky high above is Caribbean blue...
If all you told was turned to gold, if all you dreamed were new
Imagine sky high above in Caribbean blue...

the future's unsure

2010-05-25T22:46:00.000-07:00

My blog, my place of emotions renewal, my place of stress dumping, it has turned mouldy.
Pure laziness, sometimes along with a cant-be-bothered attitude.
(but hey, i changed my blogskin. Am loving it..)

If you're reading this, howdy! Im glad you are still rotting along with this mundane space online. :D
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Some time back, APSN delta(im a PE teacher in that special sch) took staff photo.
And i totally dont fit into the picture. In what way do i look like a teacher?! Needless to say, im the youngest there.

I think i carry a fake smile there. I must have been in a dull mood with the meeting just before it and the terribly hot weather.

Im awaiting for June to come..
But before good things happen, I've to be hardworking and do well in my exams.
(*chants* i will be hardworking i will be hardworking i will be hardworking)

Hearsay

2010-05-01T02:32:00.000-07:00

~The best thing to hold onto in life is each other.

I miss everything about you

2010-04-30T23:29:00.000-07:00

I Never Told You
~Colbie Caillat

I miss those blue eyes
How you kiss me at night
I miss the way we sleep

Like there's no sunrise
Like the taste of your smile
I miss the way we breathe

But I never told you
What I should have said
No, I never told you
I just held it in

And now,
I miss everything about you
Can't believe that I still want you
and after all the things we've been through
I miss everything about you
Without you

I see your blue eyes
Everytime I close mine
You make it hard to see
Where I belong to
When I'm not around you
It's like I'm alone with me

But I never told you
What I should have said
No, I never told you
I just held it in

And now,
I miss everything about you
Can't believe that I still want you
and after all the things we've been through
I miss everything about you
Without you

the fun

2010-04-14T21:12:00.000-07:00

I wanna visit Universal Studio Singapore!!!

the slut

2010-04-01T23:15:00.000-07:00

It was some time ago.
But, i just felt like using my space here to give my heartfelt thanks.

My great pal JW,
Thank you so much for remembering me while enjoying Japan's winter.

I dono how you know, but i love egg biscuit and cuttlefish.
不亏是好朋友
Such a rich ass! See that burberry hanky?! BURBERRY!
who on earth buys branded stuff on a holiday and send it as a gift.
tsk tsk...

But.... i like.... *grin*

I will try to save up to get gifts for friends while travelling. I WILL TRY!.
hahahaha...

Workoholic

2010-04-01T21:03:00.000-07:00

Mad world, mad world!

I've been working my ass of recently.
(yes yes, eunice is always a busy girl)
The consequences would be dead beat at the end of the day, and of cos 'stoning period' throughout the whole day.
But then to be able to plop down to bed and just hibernate within the minute, that's quite good too.

And why have i been taking up all sorts of lobang recently? that's because i need to be a money making machine to watch the digits in my bank account increase.

And what sort of lobang have i been taking up?
EVERYTHING...!

FH teacher at the school for special needs

At the canon event, resort world :))

Benefit cosmetic CANDY girl

1-day kindergarden teacher assistant. (she's soooooo cute)

Instructor at anderson primary

Which resulted in a typical 'hibernation-mode-during-lecture-time' student..

This is the main lobang i should be focusing on.
BEING A STUDENT
(seesh! was caught dozing off during lecture and thus got snapped)

This busy life will go on for some time. At least till June, to save enough for taiwan trip!!! yippeeeeee.
So i'll get to sleep among the clouds within a plane twice this year
Taiwan!
Perth!!
Moolahs must continue flooding in for me to have an enjoyable time in these countries.

bright and early for the daily races,
goin' no where, goin' no where.
Its a mad world indeed.

I scream for ice cream

2010-03-23T10:15:00.000-07:00

I missed out ben & jerry's free cone day!!! ahhh!! :(
Now i crave big for ice cream, i shall stuff myself with those sugarlicious goodie soon.

humans, the funniest creature

2010-02-25T00:05:00.000-08:00

Feeling Blue

i think, humans are the worse creature living.
They are hard to understand, hard to please.
They dont see the fact, but only read into misunderstandings.

I am, human too..
However i cant help but think and boast, im a very forgiving one.
(forgive but sometimes cant forget, isnt that good enough?)
I think im easy to please too, aint i?
i don ask for much from others.

but...

easily misunderstood, easily blamed.

Yeah yeah, be disgusted. im sinking into self-pity.
So what? Aft all, im only human.

In order not to bring trouble to myself, i prefer to sit quietly in a corner and wait.
wait for the time when my presence would be needed.
That applies to everyone around me. You need me, then find me up; Or else i'll just be in my enjoyable little dark side.
Decreases my life's stress. woohooo.

Ps. i feel that it works great. Call me a selfish anti-social bitch. aha!

Fly away fly

2010-02-05T00:04:00.000-08:00

I randomly browse through friends on facebook and found something much in common for those studying in local uni.
Why are they all taking a ride on a jetplane to faraway places for exchange program??
Its making me impatient.
I cant wait to go to perth for my studies too..........

Gonna source for cheap air tix, better catch the early bird promotions. What's more, gotta source for cheap accomodation. Hearing that standard of living is quite high there, its a must to save whenever possible. Its a big MUST to save up for shopping and sight seeing..
Ohhhh i cant wait!
Definitely gotta check out the whole uni to decide if i wanna further my studies there aft graduating. Its a good chance to check out the other universities too. I hope there's chance for me to check out other cities of Australia too if time permits me to. oh cant wait for that..
Will be flying, eating, shopping, playing, camwhoring, studying, sleeping, snatching toilet with dear irene and angeline.. haha!
Cant wait cant wait!

the one who will never abandon you

2010-01-26T00:42:00.000-08:00

With an anticipating heart, excitedly entered the cinema to watch Hachiko.
Yet touched by the movie, i exited with teary eyes.
Dogs, they are an even better companion than humans.
So glad cookie came into my life..
And i know, he will enter and never leave it, forever.

My Little Rascal

That moment

2010-01-14T20:00:00.000-08:00

Pacing around outside the arrival hall, with my itouch playing enya's 'only if'.
Praying hard that my surprise works, while searching among the many lookalike as they were collecting their black duffle bag from the luggage belt.

Anxious, excited, happy, abit of worry, fear, and finally relieve.
All of these add up together, that indescribable emotion whelmed up within me.
I've never felt that way before.
:)

fucked up dog abuser

2010-01-09T16:19:00.000-08:00

I came upon this facebook page.
Click here
Its a video about a fucked up guy throwing a dog off a bridge. From the video, it appears to me that it was just for the fun of it.
Bloody idiot, i feel like kicking him in his manhood and hope he trips and fall off from the bridge too.
Such dog abuser, assholes! Such heartless people should seriously get thrown off the bridge too, and i hope their internal organs burst and scatter everywhere.

The dog suffered from broken limbs and internal organs injury, eventually died.
Click on the fb link and watch the video, bet you will have the same response as me.

oh man... :( I shall go and cuddle cookie now.

i miss you so

2010-01-09T01:03:00.000-08:00

Almost 2 yrs since grandma left
Sometimes i wish she was still around
How i wish she was there at my 21st birthday celebration
Other times i spoke to her in my heart
Telling her all's fine at home
Telling her that ahyi is alright, that im still looking after her

I still miss her so..

dejavu

2009-12-31T13:45:00.000-08:00

Seconds tick, and the year 2010 is approaching.

Many days ago, i celebrated my 21st bdae. It as a blast! I had a great time, and i thank all my frens for making it so wonderful. Planning that party was a big headache, time consuming, energy consuming. In the end, i didnt regret holding it after all, it would be a happy memory of my life.

Few days ago, celebrated xmas during the eve and on the day itself. We had a successful party at ange's place. It was superb! I've never had such a Christmas party of that sort before, with the music, deco food all so perfect.

Today's new year eve, hours away. I suppose i've achieved something for this year. I got my driving license, schooling life has been great with all the great friends i've made in school. Joined two runs, great eastern women's and new balance real run, had a jolly good time at both events. ❤ life has been great, thank you boy for what you've done this year. Whatever that happens in the future, i pray that we will both be happy always. My friends had been great companys too.. Justine laopo, Tiffany Audrey darlings, Irene and Angeline my sisters (Hah! everyone thinks we are)I heart you all!!

As 2010 approaches, i shall not say anything about it. I don wanna jinx it. Whenever i wish for a good year, the new year would be a bad one. So i shut my mouth for 2010.

Enjoy your countdowns and have a great year ahead everyone! :)

As busy as a bee

2009-12-17T02:32:00.000-08:00

I've been uber busy this week,
and more to come...
♥'s social night and my big day party.
:)

luckily dad's out of town and i can drive myself around to get stuff done.
It saves those precious time!

To be captured forever

2009-11-25T23:10:00.000-08:00

Ahhh im so gonna get it....when my pocket starts filling up that is.. sigh...
Just feel that polaroid cameras are special, they take special pictures. :)

Its the festive season approaching! I love love love it when everywhere's playing christmas carols all day long.

But something just feels out of place.
I think its just me.

Swing the mood along with the me

responsibility

2009-11-04T13:22:00.000-08:00

This little rascal gives me panic attack. Seriously..

Float by the fog

2009-10-22T13:05:00.000-07:00

I finally see moolahs in my account. It must be saved well..
More work coming right up, and the moolahs will multiply. Yippee.

Down with flu, stay at home. Anyway its always home for me..
Will only move my butt if im asked to go out.
I think its better this way, to wait for people who really enjoy my company to ask me out, instead of doing the opposite.
Sounds selfish?
Lesson learnt and i don wanna be disappointed again. :)
I really don think im a complicated soul to be with, and i wonder why sometimes people tend to drift far into their own complex thoughts and think other wise.
SIGH

Mayb, mayb the only complicated part of me is that,
i tend to protect my heart, myself....... bedofre bothering about others.
Living in this world filled with human nature, has led to this..

So i like to be invited, then i know that im important and needed..
AHAHAHAHAHA... i know i know im such a bitch.
and everyone agrees in unity.

Ps. there's always a complex side to whats happening, and you thought you knew.

The shrieks of kids

2009-10-14T22:05:00.000-07:00

A rather mundane life led.
It has just been work and home.
Then i add-on perks, by spending my afternoon in the gym.
Run the emotions away, it always helps.
As i lift myself on the pull-up machine, it somewhat equivalent to lifting the heavy stone off my heart.
Interesting how my anxiety just let go, and flows out together with my prespiration.

Tmr is another 'oh-great-its-time-to-face-the-shrieks-of-kids-again' day.
Not that i don like kids, they are truly adorable. Its a joy teaching them, brings warmth to your heart when you know that you've actually pass down knowledge to them.
But there are the few wreckers among the kiddos, those which i've to silly-ly smile at, but feel like strangling at the back of my head.
Patience is a MUST when handling toddlers, to actually get a response from them is like waiting for the sky to drop.

I must learn how to handle kids, it would be an advantage if im selected for the attachment at KKH.
I've never regret studying my course till this day, its really interesting.
And im grateful for the many medical seminar and networking i get to be involved in. I've really learnt alot.
I cant cant cant wait to attend school in Perth nxt yr!

Gotta drop by raffles for an event interview tmr. Wouldnt mind working my ass off for those extra moolahs.
I need them so that i can escape from reality on a jetplane.

And it cant get any better.
most people would turn you away

Resynthesis of the memory system

2009-09-28T00:22:00.000-07:00

Just like that, im losing hair because im pulling them out due to anxiety from mental blockage.

my guardian angel

2009-09-16T10:42:00.000-07:00

I used to own a very pretty cross bracelet.
It was bought from a christian shop. Totally beautiful, made of mother-of-pearl. The best thing about it was that my grandma was the one who bought it for me.
It was surprising that my grandma decided to walk into a christian store together with me back then, even more surprising that she bought the bracelet for me without my knowledge because she saw me getting mesmerized by it throughout the time in the shop.
It was my favorite.
I became very attached to it after her death.
Whether im exaggerating or not, i felt her presence when i wore it with me.
I always kept it in a little box when im not wearing it, not wanting to dirty or lose it.

However, the nxt time i opened the box to take it out......... its gone....
I dont know how i lose it.
I cant seem to find it.
And my last memory of it was that its kept in that box.

You wouldnt know how much i hate myself for losing it.
Even though its just a small accessory, it meant alot to me.
I really really hope miracle happens, and one day it would appear infront of me again.
It should be misplaced at home.
I really hope so.
I really really hope so.

And i really really really miss my grandma.
Is she missing me too?

In those thoughts

2009-09-14T00:15:00.000-07:00

There's so much to say, to give my piece of mind, but i cant seem to say it out.
I just wanna get it straighten out, but it never seems possible.
Everybody is different, cant you just accept it?
I hate standing in the middle of a situation. I hate i hate.
And i feel very very threatened.

Sad to say, i realized something, im a person of great jealousy.
IN ALL ASPECT
Is that why im self-conscious?

I dislike spoilers.
That is, spoilers of my life.
Call me heartless, call me selfish.
Mayb i am, but im just protecting myself, my heart, mind, soul.

stop being like this. Not everyone can take it.

I need someone to make my day too

2009-08-07T23:49:00.000-07:00

No man has a good enough memory to be a successful liar

Greetings!
You must be here because you accidentally clicked this or were too bored and decided to surf till here.
Bahah!

Anyway im being smacked in the face by the flooding of assignments plus exam revision aka sch work to be even opening up my laptop.
Should be going missing from the cyber world.

Life's great so far living in this hectic world, until i wish i can walk straight into a wall now, get a concussion and never wake up. therefore screw life..
So long earthlings.

i need someone to make my day too....... dumb dumb shit

I've turn hardworking

2009-07-23T15:23:00.000-07:00

Swimming and running on a daily basis as HOMEWORK.
Very unique right!

Indeed that's what i need to do, in order to build up stamina for lab work at sports council, since we all have to be subject during lab. I don wanna be the one panting away when the rest of the class are holding on, that's embarrassing.

With the influence of my course, there's many certs i wanna attain. Coming up would be first aid and CPR cert.
Nxt i wanna save up and learn scuba diving! Anyone interested too?
With a diving cert/license, im sure i can get away from this stressful island once in a while to destress.
AND must learn wakeboarding from angeline.

Schooling life has been great. Interesting course have allow me to morphed into a hardworking girl and even start revising for mid-sem exams.
But its so busy that my everyday is just exercising as 'homework', attending tutorials and labs and studying in the SMA lib which end ups to chit-chatting with staffs there.
Abit no life already..

Army half marathon, anyone interested??? Im no runner, so im only aiming the 10km.

♥ cant book out this weekend. With this news, i just have that feel to bury my head in those books.

Random: Din Tai Feng 小笼包 is looovvveeee....

Here's the jealousy threshold

2009-07-16T00:25:00.000-07:00

STOP asking me stuff related to my weakest point already.
STOP raking up the sad past.
STOP adding to my confusion and anxiety.
STOP making me lose all the confidence again.

I've had enough.

Drink. Drank. Still drinking

2009-07-10T11:59:00.000-07:00

TGIF! TGIF!
*all smiles*

I had an active week. Ange, Irene and I decided during lectures that we were being unhealthy and not sporty enough, after all we were sports science students... Sport science students must have those muscles!! -_-
So wed, we had a game of badminton at np before getting chased out of the court by the rude S&W teacher, but not to waste the day, we ran around the track. Shiok!
Thur irene's bro had to train at queenstown stadium, there we two make it down to run and swim too.. Shiok Shiok!

But all the exercise kinda went down to waste when we met ange aft her work together with Yuan our classmate for lunch at ikea. Those meatballs, pasta, daim cake and CHICKEN WINGS!!! sinful.

Being determined to stay active, we just registered for the great eastern 10K run, would be my 2nd try in this run. Woot.

Ps, my back muscle aches from the swim laps. Omg there goes my swimming stamina.

For dono what reason, my mum has been bringing back many pints of foreign beer from her workplace. Now my place is like a warehouse.. And a barrel of heineken which belongs to ME!!! The problem with a mum who works in a beer company results in a house stacking with alcohol. HAHA..

Da double dee double di
so call me your sugar, so call me your sugar.

Bad mood

2009-07-07T13:14:00.000-07:00

Argh i fail my TP!!!! *cries*
Thanks to my dumb emotions, i couldnt control my nervousness and i freakin cant think straight. Even the tester got so irritated by my nervouness i think. But the tester was really nice, friendly, and he din look down on me even though i had immediate failure. YES I FREAKING HIT THE KERB! TWICE!

anyway i told myself... I WILL PASS THE NEXT ONE FOR SURE! *prays hard*

♥ was unable to call me last night :(
This week seems like its gonna be filled with uncertainities.
And when the weekend comes, i'll still have lectures.

Random sidetrack 1, there's a new cat who lingers outside my aunt's hse.Its freakin cute.

Random sidetrack 2, I realize the jealousy threshold has reached its max. Because its always not about me. Where's me?

Random sidetrack 3, Whats up with imeem, why they only play 30s of my song?? :(

My say

2009-07-03T15:42:00.000-07:00

TGIF!

Who said i dont look forward to weekends.. NOW I DO.. haha.
Weekend faster come weekends faster come...

Have you ever felt over the moon when you realize what your importance means to one, and nxt moment it might be on the verge of being removed?
It feels like its gonna be a kickstart of dumbshit again.
Explaining why i feel like crap now, and i feel like i can crash down buildings. -_-
ARGH i feel like crap, and im not saying why.
woohoo, i just PMS like a bitch.

Its all meant to be.
But i still cant wait to see you, it brings comfort to my heart.

pick on my brain cells

2009-06-27T17:45:00.000-07:00

Im so glad i manage to FORCE MYSELF to keep my eyes open throughout my whole lecture. He is the most mono-toned lecturer i've gottn so far who teaches at a ............ speed.
Its was a torture to keep awake..

Yes my new sem has start once again, which mean i've to battle up get ready for the flooding of assignments and projects, least to say mug for mid sem exams in weeks to come..
and im so excited...NOT

BUT im excited for its saturday today, Tmr is SUNDAY!!!!! woohooooooooo!!!!
I seriously hope class ends much much earlier tmr.

Tomorrow faster come, tomorrow faster come!!!!

the attack of the money sucking machine

2009-06-21T23:45:00.000-07:00

The temptation of the money sucking machine was too strong. Its just too attractive to be missed. :))

and i was forced to say, 'THANKS TO THE HELP OF MY BROTHER!'
Yes he help me grab these. But i think the pink wierd looking mickey is an eyesore.

BMT

2009-06-16T23:07:00.000-07:00

The classic depressing path for every enlistees.

Cant wait to see the botak head.♥

moolahs damage

2009-06-13T23:31:00.000-07:00

New additions from the money sucking machine...
And i only got it from 2 tyco tries. woohooo...

Days are passing by real quickly. Sometimes i just wish that time would stop.
Anyway isnt the saying so true? That when you gain something, you lose something. And it happens all the time.

Dont complicate life

2009-06-05T06:37:00.000-07:00

Rest in peace ah gong

I never expect myself to get all emotional at the loss of grandfather, after all he were not close with us all. But thinking bout the times we spent then, 心酸酸的..

Sigh.... humans. contradicting. complicating.

Sigh.... the future. unpredictable. uncontrollable.

the distractions between us always come at the wrong time.
Mayb im insensitive.
And i think its a good thing to make my life simpler.

After all, its always better, to not complicate life.

I've been carried on the back in my hard times

2009-05-25T23:53:00.000-07:00

Awhile ago, i was actually applying my module skills learnt to analyze why the discomfort in my kneecap is worsening as the days goes.
All along i had weakness in my right kneecap. Basically im slightly, just slightly flat footed. not to the extend when my whole feet is flat down, but it causes my feet to lean inwards as i walk. And i think it cause the improper balancing of the muscles in my kneecap, therefore causing a certain ligament in between to overuse.
It use to just be slight weakness, slight pain at times but it wasnt bothering me much. But now at this point of time......

I hear sudden 'pop' sound at almost every knee movement, there's slight swelling, there's a 'wobbly' feeling of my knee.
HAHA. i actually used skills learnt to analyze once again! Kinda happy about this point in a way.
In a bad kind of way..

I feel the area heating up, therefore that concludes swelling or inflammation. POP sound indicates it's ligament problem.
Immediate treatment:
-ice the area to bring down the inflammation.
-apply antisteroid medication to ease discomfort and pain, and in my terms it means applying medicated plaster over it 1st.

Sigh another problem to add on to my worries. Most probably i've to spend money and time again to see a sports medicine doctor getting it heal. I wanna heal it, for i still wanna run, swim and stay active in sports.
ROAR why i always get injuries???
Im no weakling!

Im vexed. I need more focus, i've been too distracted recently, i've been stoning every now and then. I've been making lotsa mistakes, not controlling emotions well. no good!
And now i've a new problem to worry. No good no good!

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"My son, my precious child,
I love you and I would never leave you.
During your times of trial and suffering,
when you see only one set of footprints,
it was then that I carried you."

I trust in His words

Life's conviction

2009-05-17T01:14:00.000-07:00

THIS IS GOING CRAZY
till im suffocated.

Krazy Crazy Krazy
and shake off those flabbiness..
And then start those engine and armour up for exams. (Which means gem bisuit plus chocolate to the rescue)

So be it

2009-05-13T23:57:00.000-07:00

Call me sensitive, but im seriously not having a good feeling about this.
What i see may not be what it seems, but still... i go with my sixth sense. It might be wrong, but im just being very cautious. VERY.. call me sensitive again. Thats me.

Plus the stress im getting frm home... I cant help but let it out.
I tried holding back, i cant.

It has been a bad week...
But little dumpling made my day today.

Just as

2009-05-03T23:14:00.000-07:00

And just as i said that, I was feeling at ease.
And now when i read that, i start to ponder.

Im wondering...
if i ever made things better for you?
if i ever was a topic of destress for you?
Was it totally the other way round?
~~You never once voiced out, and i never will know~~

You need me?
You dont need me?
I feel useless one way or another

Scared the wits out

2009-05-03T21:18:00.000-07:00

When you were about to black out
As you got choked on word
you cant breathe properly
you were paralyzed for the moment
Literally you thought you were about to meet the angels
You wonder what if something really terrible happens to you
The only word was paranoid
Your whole head will only flood with the love one.
You cant think straight, just flashbacks
You panic to bring yourself back to normal
Once back, you grab the one for fear of losing
As emotional as it sounds, its as emotional as it can be

XOXO
Dont wanna end it at all.

friends or foe

2009-05-02T01:45:00.000-07:00

The dinner which left me feeling freaking bloated sitted in Fish and Co. @ AMK hub.

BEFORE

AFTER

Shiok Shiok Shiok! Fat Fat Fat!

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With past experience, i've learnt from my own life lesson that 'regrets' is the most common attribute in my life. Such as missing out the chance to do or to voice out something.
Especially between people and people relationship..
i used to be very 婆妈, after all, 人与人之间的事是最难搞的.

Relationships are the most sensitive topic, therefore leaving it hard to settle. but i found out that, if i dont voice out when i wish to, or drag doing something which i wanna do, and eventually when i start to lose the chance, i'll regret badly.
Because time and chance dont wait for me, it just slips by without u knowing.

That sort of regret really sucks, especially if its regarding someone you love, trust me.

距离并不可怕，可怕的是心越来越远

Take my hands

2009-04-29T17:22:00.000-07:00

It's like catching lightning
The chances of finding someone
Like you
It's one in a million
The chances of feeling the way
We do

And with every step together
We just keep on getting better
So can I have this dance?

Random random

2009-04-29T00:16:00.000-07:00

Random Random, The last time i went bbdc to register for TP, i was kinda shocked to see how busy bbdc was.

So freaking many cars, how to drive??!! I seriously dislike busy roads, i hate driving on gear 1 or 2, so this type of road is a no no to me.

Random Random, the sun, sea, sand is the moodsaver.

Random random, Chelsea shall win later! or mayb draw... HAHA.
Imagine the finals, ManU vs Chelsea. woot!

SUBWAY COOKIE IS LOVEEEE!

There are times it came to me, im glad we're okay. Thank god for it, thank god for you.
but then, its really an obsession should not be.

Living with the obsession

2009-04-28T00:06:00.000-07:00

I've a new collection to the unliving creatures on my bed. =) and i played the money sucking machine on my own just to get it.

Check out the blue stich.
Its a very addictive machine indeed!

Life has been so far so good, but i would say its my mood that sways alot.

I feel the stress frm sch, as there are projects every single week.
I feel the stress frm society, because i dont have enough money, which isnt a good thing, cos im in debt to people. and by people, i mean my mum, dad and laopo. who said u dont owe parents money, now the CPF board is chasing me for the poly sch fees which need to be returned to dad. SHUCKS.
Relationship has its worse turn, as i always feel inferior to others, always wondering if im well liked, or being dislike. it matters alot to me, it always has.
Mayb i just dont wanna be looked down upon. Mayb i wanna have an attribute that i can be proud of.
Mayb im just too defensive of myself still.
Or mayb, im just being sensitive.

There are times i feel like giving up, for the facts are there for me. Yet i cant question, for i dont wanna know. Curiosity kills.
Self console: its good, at least the good times can cover up. Just covering up.

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Past 4 days, it was my grandma's death anniversary. How time flies, its been a year since i've lost that close loved one of mine. She lives closely in my heart. The times that i dreamt of her, the time when my auntie dreamt of grandma and me together. I know she is still living within us, in our hearts, in some of our hearts.
I think of grandma almost every single day, its just like how i see her every single day when she was still around.
This fact was something i need not announce to everyone, yet there are those who have to do so for themself. But in fact, its not convincing, not convincing at all.
Once in a while, i would look back at the many pictures i took of grandma. im so glad i did, and they are kept as my treasure. One of it was even used at her funeral, it just feels like a great thing to keep these pictures and being able to look at them.
Grandma's death brought out family back together, except of some whom i wouldnt need to spell it out. After all, im the younger generation in the family, i wouldn't wanna be called unfilial.

Its just misses and love for grandma.

This is a world of lies, isnt it? As one lies to you, and then you'll lie to yourself for helping that one cover up. its like a cycle, never ending.
Sigh..

Jealous jealous jealous, ignorant ignorant ignorant, contradicting, haappy yet sad.

HAHA! What an emotion.

What a post of rants. Its just whats going through my head, and as my fingers just move along typing these out, i come to realize, im still defending myself, my heart.

I aint freakin, i aint fakin this

2009-04-16T12:11:00.000-07:00

Thank you for mickey! i want more more more! =)

Uneasy, unappreciated, not prioritize, lonely, lost
Can anyone explain these heartfelt.
Life is so..为什么.....
Im the pessimistic and im proud to say it. -_-
Miss Popular ~~NOT~~

I should stop taking the initiative.. bah ha

老婆你在上海玩得开心吧..

快点回来，回来陪我..

Blur Like Sotong

2009-04-13T14:28:00.000-07:00

I've been doing stunts the whole of today.
Must be due to the fact that i was stoning the whole day.
For the whole day, i've been like muddle head, or else it would be answering nonsense to people when they are asking me something. It happened the whole day man!

I think those random people who spoke to me have vomited their fill of blood. HAHAA
I dono why, but my head was in a blank, and by the time i realize i've replied something, tooo lateeee....

Lady: 'Miss, do you have your ic with you, i need to photocopy it.'
Me (with wallet in hand): 'Dont have, Its in my wallet.........................'
-_-

What was i thinking man! Super duper embarrassng

And i see the reason why...
Its 2am and im sill awake frm studying. No choice! i aim to get at least a B for my tues paper.
yes i know, given my brain, i need to put in alot and alot of effort.
I said i can do it! Shoo............

Now... I need my bed before i start uttering nonsense infront of my rabbit.

Bon voyage SLUT

2009-04-10T01:33:00.000-07:00

I din control my emotions well again, therefore getting PARANOID..
Baaahhhhh....
I have trust in you. :)

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Anyway!!! Went to chill with slutty JW before he fliessss to Naruwan Taiwan.
Not for holiday but under the order of the Singapore Armed Forces. Wahahha!
so anyway, Bon voyage Slut!! Be back safely! And bring me my souvenir...

Same to you laopo, have a safe trip tmr! And have a great time there alright. ENJOY!

I wanna travel too, sigh, but it requires moolah! money! cash!
Any moolah making activity to introduce?

Numb

2009-04-08T23:14:00.000-07:00

the heart is a small organ.
It should only have just enough capacity for only one partner.
It should be the one and Only One.

So maybe, fading away doesnt seem so bad.
I must learn how to deal with another loss in time to come.

♥

Love me deep deep

2009-04-08T11:38:00.000-07:00

Life's Contradiction

It passes too quickly, and it had to happen at the point of time when im starting to accept. THEREFORE, its no good, no good at all.
Seriously, have any of u taken my importance into consideration?
Or am i really of no importance?
Is losing me a bad thing or a 'Yes! finally! great!' thing?
once again, ACTION SPEAKS LOUDER THAN WORDS. From every single action, shows the importance u took of me. 99.5% true.

~~Where's my dates, hugs and chocs? Pls dont let them be words and not action..~~ Bahhh!

Let me feel your halo

2009-04-06T02:59:00.000-07:00

The weather have gone haywire.
Mr sun was shining down on us like it has the intention to burn us all for the past days.
And today!
the sudden downpour was crazy, getting myself drenched in it.
hello beings! pls drink more herbal tea! haha.

I ought to too, i feel that sore throat creeping in on me, and i've been sneezing till my head hurts. WAAAAAA...

~Let it stay, dont go away. Let me feel ur halo once again.
Some things may not seem important to you, but u never know how much it means to me.

stay with me

2009-04-01T23:25:00.000-07:00

Innocence and pure cuteness of my nephew.
Babies are so cute!

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I feel disappointed, that i always cant handle my own problems, end up turning to others for help.
The word = useless.

I sense a gap, and i feel distant. and im not liking it

and the heart starts to pound

2009-03-31T16:26:00.000-07:00

歌词：我的错(B.A.D)

飞机已离开机场你选择了前往你的方向
不再迷惘
忘了我们爱的过往忘了我给你的伤
学会坚强
从前的我不懂你牺牲多大
为我失去朋友不讲还放弃了所有梦想
觉得没怎样不会将心比心去想
让你慢慢慢慢失去了希望

能不能够再给我机会好好的爱你
我会仔细的聆听你对我说的一言一语
我会学会去控制脾气不让你伤心
对你好好的去珍惜
请你相信我的心还是爱你

我想再重来一次回到过去弥补你的伤
没那种事
怎么做才能够停止后悔竟伤你如此
不再放肆
为何总到失去才懂的难过当你在我身边的时候
总是为我默默守候
都是为我的错错过这难得的拥有
就让你爱我的心慢慢溜走

Can this be for me?

Appreciation means alot to me.. Even a tiny bit matters.

Because i have the emotions which i cant seem to control. sigh.
♥

无药可救

2009-03-30T23:12:00.000-07:00

人啊总是说一套，做一套.

WHY??!
the cliche saying goes, actions speaks louder than words. HEED IT LAH!
I have 0.00000001% confidence right now at this period. For all u know, tmr when the sun rise and im awake, things will be different and my life will change once again.
WHO KNOWS!? so i am living my life in a !%#$@$# way now.

ARGH, DAMN MOODY LAH!

Life is everchanging..
Humans are no exception.. PERIOD.
and i am human.

Life's ever changing

2009-03-30T19:07:00.000-07:00

the exciting part is when the sparks light up to become a flame..
It burns and shines brightly.
But no matter what, it will die off eventually...

and u need the sparks again.

Life is getting hectic. Assignments! Projects! Lab reports! Presentations!
Plus im taking driving lessons now.. HOW COOL! I see myself as a future reckless driver.

I have to start move it move it move it... My life is getting dull..

And i miss you.

Check those muscles..

2009-03-23T23:34:00.000-07:00

Everyone did a great job

Yesterday was an exhausting and 'energy zapping' day.
But it was definitely a great experience!
:)

Glucose, plasma and platelets

2009-03-21T23:57:00.000-07:00

Already, 2 lecturers and a staff of the school asked if we were sisters, real blood related sisters. oh wow.....

Have been busy since friday getting ready for the Aviva ironman triathlon which is happening tmr. that's because my 1st assignment for my physiology module is to do a lab research of 14 athlete's at the triathlon itself. Im part of the team which would be helping this professor aka SUNNY BOY research on muscle damage in a triathlon athlete. my section would be to be that assistant helping out as he take the blood samples of the athletes. Im like a medical officer! double wow..

Gonna be a tedious and busy day tmr..................
plus the group report to be done after that. my assignments nightmares are starting.

STUNNED

2009-03-16T22:50:00.000-07:00

i am very stunned by what happened at science centre during the terrible thunder storm.

这么夸张的事原来是真的..

Thank God no one was hurt...

Gather together

2009-03-15T23:11:00.000-07:00

Went to aloha loyang last night for robin held his 21st bdae celebration there.

It was a nice gathering, if only more could make it.
Funny topics such as comparing the number of future children the guys wanna have, talking bout individual's NS life (as usual!) and of cos comparing how much taller i've ~~not~~ grown.. -_-

Throw it away, Forget yeserday, We'll make the great escape..

Get out of my social life

2009-03-09T22:08:00.000-07:00

你很烦啦!
You caused the unsettling feeling in me.
Yet i cant do anything about it.

HAIZ!

Quit rushing

2009-03-06T23:37:00.000-08:00

Ugly!
the way some people handle situations, handle human relationship.
totally disgust me.
I wouldnt say im a perfect being who is right at all times, no one is perfect anyway.
but i wouldnt do things that does not flow with my conscience.
and i do things to build up on happiness, not create havoc.
dont be a destroyer in life, of my life.

thats why, i love animals..
they are the only ones, who do not have any scheming heart.
they are the ones who purely spell love in the most decent way.

just like my furry little rabbit.... :)

Let me mend it back

2009-03-04T23:33:00.000-08:00

I unintentionally did it out of mere self protection, without knowing it..
I've the unsettling heart.. pls give me more time, thats all im asking for.

but pls don give up on me.

Cause you're up then you're down

2009-03-02T23:47:00.000-08:00

Stuck on a roller coaster, Cant get off this ride

Time passes, emotions felt

confusion
happiness
overjoyed
frustration
uncertainty
anger
disappointment

I make my own decisions, and from the start i already accepted that anything can happen anytime. I just cherish every single moment, for i know happiness will not last a lifetime.
Expectations must never be made.

In addition, i just received via email one of my assignment results for my last sem.
It was an assignment which i spent the most time and effort killing my not-so-smart brain cells completing.
DAMN IT I FREAKING FAIL IT!!! and i freaking fail by a pathetic 1 mark, PATHETIC! i dono why but im very angry with tha marks im getting. damn damn damn!
my efforts are always wasted. ALWAYS!

Shall just continue my episodes of comedy and get to bed.

yank away

2009-03-02T01:27:00.000-08:00

its sickening.
That i always have communicative problems with everyone around me.
The way i convey something, always ends up with a wrong meaning unintentionally.
the whole of today it has been like this..

and im going to bed with a very heavy heart..

reading jodi picoult's book made it worse.
GOOD JOB EUNICE.........

and i wish i've my own bedroom where i can escape to at times.........................................

♥

2009-02-27T23:38:00.000-08:00

I wish i can make you feel better, happier..

I really do.

彩虹

2009-02-27T15:47:00.000-08:00

This was sent to me..

damn sad... such nice rainbow, but i din get to see it while so many ppl get to snap shots of it.. damn sad damn sad.

woohooo slutty slut is back.. bring on the music!
damn but this weekends im having class..... booooooooooo
然后呢，我很想开口，又不懂得怎样... sigh.. there goes my weekends.

我的爱爱爱

SLACKO

2009-02-24T22:15:00.000-08:00

During my trip to bbdc this morning on the mrt, i met this sickening pervert. i bet he is some rapist on the loose... Freak! still disgusted by him. I ought to have a fiercer looking face too, to prevent such idiot frm harassing me ever again... -_-

My short sch break is coming to an end.
Besides the emotional roller coaster rides during this period, i've turn into a slacko once again.
I was given this nick years ago, i dont want it back...

Been blogshop browsing recently, its so addictive.
I found this tee i like, cute words nice blue, yet it wasnt worth the price i guess.

No Moolahs, No Shopping!
And HUGS are my favourite adhesive :)

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Baby I can feel your halo
Pray it won't fade away

go go girls

2009-02-20T00:13:00.000-08:00

Funny. People are asking me if i've turned into a lesbian. Cos they viewed my fb status..
Cant i get into a r/s with my 老婆?
hur hur hur.....

Speaking of lesbians. I went with my mum and bro to MOF Bugis for dinner last weekend. THERE WAS THIS SUPER CUTE LADY WHO SERVE US. (she does look like a butch though. tomboy) Very cute, i couldn't get my eyes off her. *blush* i glance upon her name tag..
FATED LAH! guess what!
her name was Eugenice.. Eugene + Eunice = Eugenice.
How cool was that. My bro was nudging me to get her number and my mum on the opposite side was staring at me when i randomly mention that i wun mind turning crooked just for her... o.O

I love MOF food and dessert! uber shiokness + delicious.

BLOOD

2009-02-16T00:17:00.000-08:00

i receive this from an email some time ago.

anyway to those who will call my hse phone sometimes when they cant reach me, pls dont. I don really like frens calling my hse phone looking for me except for some. but when too many starts calling, i've to start voicing it out already. Much appreciated.

烦

2009-02-15T01:35:00.000-08:00

I was complaining to my mum all about it. And she told me that the gossips are bound to get started among them.
-_-
Do you think i care?!
If one person wanna start commenting, nothing will stop the gossips from starting.
好烦啦!

i think i should dump my phone and all means of connection and lock them up, before i escape away frm reality for some time. or at least for the whole of nxt week.
Sounds good to me.
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The only thing that brings a smile.

I din expect to receive ROSE

SMILE WIDELY

Thank u so much LOVE! I hope u like my present too... It was too much of a coincidence wasnt it? Telepathy i would call it... We even had the same thought to engrave '老婆' in them.
:)

Its just another day.

DOWN DOWN DOWN

2009-02-14T00:48:00.000-08:00

DREAMS WILL JUST STAY AS DREAMS

Receiving those sms one by one, i should be feeling that slight happiness, shouldnt i?
fuck not!

Indeed, it was Friday the Thirteen

run away with my heart

2009-02-10T23:41:00.000-08:00

Running attire, running shoes, mp3 player.
Thinking about all things bad, and then sprinting all the way for at least 5 mins.
indeed tiring, damn tiring.
But i enjoy running to destress.

SHIOK.

Love me or Hate me

2009-02-09T12:13:00.000-08:00

I was given a task by my classmate yet i could not even freaking get it done.
Anyone can help me source for free tennis court for play?

I should lock myself up at home for this week because everywhere is having adverts or sales whatsoever for valentine's day.
NO I DONT LIKE.

When u got blacklisted for something you did not do, failure..
Im not even being listened. failure..
Why did i even got all worried that time? In vain only...
Failure.

EVERYONE! isit that hard to stand by me?

LEFT ALONE

2009-02-08T21:42:00.000-08:00

DESTROYED

this is a lesson learnt, never to hold hopes.

pain

财神爷

2009-02-06T00:10:00.000-08:00

emo being with emo blog flooded with emo posts and an emo song playing on it.
PERFECT.

~~~~~

The last time i blogged out that i hope to win 4D, and i really did.
so this time.....

LET ME WIN THE 10MILLION TOTO DRAW!!
i wont be greedy, i dont need millions, just hundreds will do.
hur hur hur.... i will be all smiles if this works.

it wasnt the same today.. glad!
my head is spinning, so off to bed.

Physics

2009-02-04T21:20:00.000-08:00

Cant read my POKERFACE
佩服自己的隐藏

1 more paper to go! Woots...
Its has been theory all the way. my current module makes me miss my engineering physics.
Cant wait for my biomechanics modules.. Then will i touch engineering modules again. Bahaha.....
I also cant wait for my austrailia attachment!

There was a damn long queue at the singapore pools branch near my place.
There was an even longer 'drama scene' by 2 aunties. Quite disgusted by them.
And its the 1st time my classmate is buying toto, with the influence of another classmate and me.
Wahah.

somehow, im worried.. ahh does it matters
It will be the same tmr.........................................

romeo & juliet

2009-02-01T23:58:00.000-08:00

ALMOST everyone around me is 'Romeo-and-Juliet-ing' away..

I shall be a ~~selfish bastard~~ good fren, i am happy for them.
~~who am i trying to deceive~~

sleep sleep sleep sleep, sleep the shit away.
Off to bed with panadols popped down!

Vintage

2009-01-31T13:34:00.000-08:00

I dug out an antique at a relative's hse.
the then popular poodle hair, clothes of vintage, uber young faces, memories.

Spot Me.

Defeated, Gone. sianzation
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

TanJH, I'll remember that u are gonna treat me drinks!

Shake, Shake, Shake, Shake, uh shake it

kueh bangkit & bak kwa

2009-01-29T13:03:00.000-08:00

Im not enjoying this yr's cny.. The mood is not there.
I've no mood to study for exams either.... My head is only occupied with thoughts of how to enjoy aft exams..
current mood = DOWN, down, down.. Can someone bring me out for a drink to lighten myself, & i mean any drink.

Too much kueh bangkit and bak kwa and beer.. Even more pineapple tarts.
Results in a slight flu and bad sore throat.. kns

What goes around comes around...
End up questioning myself, DO I DESERVE THIS?
and im losing it.

Hong Bao collection drive

2009-01-25T23:55:00.000-08:00

I was emotional the whole of today..
two people just keep appearing in my thoughts every moment.
but....
we are.....
Just mins away from the moo moo niu year.. =)

新年快乐!!!

May u all have an enjoyable hong bao collecting time..
=D

Munching chips in class

2009-01-24T00:45:00.000-08:00

Today was my last lesson for the 1st semester.
Today was also a crazy day of last min exam mugging..
But im glad i've met the couple of crazy girls in this class to get crazy with me.

'We have brains! *scratch head*'

Doing the leg stretch! woot..

Started playing with each other's hair in the midst of revision.

Gossip Girls of the class

My course is like moving at such a fast speed.
Next up, exams exams EXAMS!!
And i can see myself carrying my lecture notes as i go hse to hse visit during CNY.
How glamorous!! -_-

So what

2009-01-23T00:03:00.000-08:00

I don know why it got so bad today..
I think im sick and dying.... CHOY!

Painkillers did the trick, killed the pain...

just some pain...

Finally done with all my projects, next up would be exams.. Tmr paper would be a killer too..
therefore, I NEED SLEEP NOW! Im deprived of it....
sleep sleep sleep sleep sleep the pain away......

acting smart when you are not

2009-01-22T00:46:00.000-08:00

Thanks for killing my mood..
Damn, you suck!

Ox-picious year

2009-01-19T02:06:00.000-08:00

I hope this ox-picious year coming right up, i wouldnt be deprive of moo..moo..moolahs..
My dear frens, any decent money making opportunities, pls remember me me me!

I dont enjoy spring cleaning because i dont like packing my room!! SIGH
Too messy... =X
However being the daughter in the family, i guess i've no choice but to help out.
SIGH SIGH..

Just a wink, the weekends are over..
Finish up this week and it would mark the end of my project.
And then it would be CNY.
And then it would be my exams.
And then it would be fun..
Fun is such a big cover up.

~~~~
im getting moody, i guess i would be for the rest of the week.
*sob sob* I miss gem biscuits.

Ah really... I prepared myself. It should be expected.....With open arms, just let it fall on me.
Just As I Thought. 讨厌

!#@%$#@#

2009-01-16T22:56:00.000-08:00

ARGH!!!!!!!!

Sleep your blues away

2009-01-15T02:36:00.000-08:00

A lady's 6th sense, you know what they say about it..
I think its true, somehow i can sense it creeping up to me.
When something bad is about to happen, I just know it.
Come on, i'm a lady with 6th sense too..
hur hur hur.........

Sleep, is what i need now..

Haven been sleeping well for the past days, i hope i get a deep full sleep for the night. When i wake up in the morning, its gonna be another busy day. Settle research, settle library books, settle project referencing.
Im always busy with school work, i have to!

sidetrack: I was too bored stoning in front of the screen looking at my project's pg, I decided to browse back on the archive of various blogs. Its quite cool doing so.. Many flashbacks.
there are posts that just leaves me smiling.. some posts.. :)

Sleep is what i need now... Sleep it all away...

'Ah how sweet' would be the thought..

2009-01-14T12:35:00.000-08:00

Being paranoid, is only a way to hold on tight to emotions. But then again, whats the use of being paranoid, when you know that whats gonna happen will still happen. Mayb even history would repeat itself..
ah shucks!

and as he jump for joy.....

~~~~~

Its a windy, chilly, sleepy, moody day..

Im feeling moody enough to stop me from concentrating on my assignment..
And darn! i've to submit it in later.. So little time left..
Quickly finish up and go for a run to shake it off.

New year without love

2009-01-13T22:30:00.000-08:00

Every year, i'll send a CNY greeting card to my auntie and grandma .
This year, its no difference.....
Just that, im unable to write 'Dear ah ma' down on the card.. only 'Dear yiyi'.
It feels...pathetic...that i no longer need to visit any grandparent hse to 拜年..

Ah well... I shall spent the time on my loads and loads of assignments instead of feeling nostalgic.
Predicted to work on it into the early morning again..
So little time left!!

melody aint important, lyrics are.

Never understanding

2009-01-11T23:46:00.000-08:00

Money is the root of all evil...
Money makes the world go round..
I need money!!!! Basically it means i need to find a money making activity.

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Few more mins to an interesting soccer match.
Manchester United vs Chelsea!
Woot woot..
But i like both teams.. who should i cheer for...
Then again, i think Man U should win this match. For Chelsea is already at the top of the league table, should let the red devils have their chance...
And pls, i don watch soccer just for the players (although its one of the reason :p) but i know the whole sport too... after all, im a sports science student! hahaha

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Arrogant is the word.. No comments.

Run away with my heart

2009-01-07T23:04:00.000-08:00

When u are feeling all stress up, or emo, or tired mentally, turning into a zombie..
A run, even a really short one would be really good..
A round around my neighbourhood was really a short run, but it made me feel better.

I shall run more...

It just happens

2009-01-06T09:18:00.000-08:00

每天早上一起身就牵挂着在我脑海里，又有谁知道

~

I added on something new to my 2009 resolution list..

and its only for me to know..