When everything came tumbling down
Friday, October 27, 2006 @ 11:30 PM
Sheeesh.. I not in a mood today.. Know how i always call ppl to bang wall. I feel like doing that myself now.
Wonder wats wrong with me today, my hands have been feeling numb all day, My chest feels very tight. Mayb i'm getting a heart attack? haha. Or a stroke??? *choy choy choy*
Talking bout something bad, My nightmares are coming back. NO WONDER I'M FEELING SO TIRED EVERY MORNING! I'm so sick of those scary dreams. i can even dream of my family members dying (can u understand how horrible that is). Had a dream of me lying in a cofin before. Dreamt that i fall and knock out my teeth( i allow u to laugh). dreamt that my grandma broke her legs. dreamt that my male rabbit gave birth. For goodness sake MALE rabbit mind u.. many more........... old wives tale mention before that when u say it out, it wun happen right. So i'm typing all these out so it wun happen... 0_0
I don even dare to sleep already. Mayb i'm going bonkers. I should start seing a mental doctor. HAAHA!!!
Haiz Time pass so slow.. Cant time just stop? ( stop at my sec sch times pls) or move faster? ( fast forward to my 'auntie' yrs pls)
motivations gone, insecure-ness comes. Heart has gone all dull and sour...